Midlife Crises Looms

I know i have not been on here for a while, which in a way is a good thing as I have nothing to moan about I suppose, but also I suppose I have never found me either maybe because I was never lost in the first place,, Things at home are ok,, to the point I have changed,, I go out more,, i have the gym which has started up again, Belly Dancing starts on tuesday and i have joined up for Boxercise classes which starts end of January,, so there should be less of me soon,

As for mid life crises not sure if it is starting or not yet Iwill be 39 this july so 40 the next year,, its not a case of I am not looking to being 40 but I have not dont a lot with my life really other than get myself into debt all the time, I would love to be debt free by the time I am 40, but maybe I have to win the lottery, when I say debt in total its about 2 grand, but thats a lot to me as I dont work, but that could hopefully change when Josh is at school, but I will do what I can to sort the debt out,,

as for me, Ok I have mentioned having a consultation for plastic surgery but for now that will not be happening way to expensive and I would not really be me,, so I need to learn to love me for who I am first which is getting there, so long as the knockbacks stop,, cause despite having 2 kids and a man who is not quite so caring I am the important one only I can help me,,

well thats it for a while,,