Feeling Normal Again

Hi all,

Feeling Normal again is a bit of a funny title really, but its all about being balanced out,, last Friday I managed to pop into town to the local tattoo parlour where I had my piercings done as i needed to get a bar put in and me being me and time being hard without children, as your not allowed to take kids in there, the times I have popped in for the bar fitting and he has just started on a tattoo has been countless, he told me to try to get there for 11 am thats as soon as the doors open,, so I managed to get there and its done, but I was told off, bearing in mind that I have only had them done a few months now, I did put a little dangly one in a while back and whilst its ok not causing any discomfort I had to take it out due to the man saying they have not been done long enough for dangly ones, so now I have a matching pair of pink bars so not feeling so odd now, more kinda Normal, thats if you can call me Normal.. tattoo is still undecided really, cant make my mind up,, I think if I was not with my man then I might do it, but then also I should not feel like that anyway, but still thinking about it, may leave it until I am 40 in a couple of years,,


The weight is still comming of slowly,, down to 14st now and a size 16 which for me is good as I used to be 20, 22 and 24 in the past 10 years,., so to be 16 is fantastic, but its still to heavy by drs count.. so will still be going to the Gym, althogh I managed Monday at 6.30 am I was planning to go today but due to mother nature taking hold my stomach is really not up for it today,, but will be going on Friday,,

My head on the other hand gets all upside down and emotional at this time of the month and I find myself thinking what am I doing with a Man who does not want to marry me, who does nothing about the home, ect,, but that passes within a few days and I am ok again,, but its that kinda time when I keep my mouth shut else I am likely to say something stupid..

Tickety Boo

Hi All,

its been a little while since I posted on here, but I suppose maybe I have found me, or the me has re appeared from the depressive and grumpyness I have been in for years,,

I not sure what I feel but try not to let things get to me, which is sometimes easier said than done,, I think things are going ok at home, well if there not were still together, and my OH as not said much, infact he seems rather pleased that his work mates seem to be taking a keen interest in me. LOL.

ON the Me front, I have struggled to loose weight but the drs have found out why,, its a case of being a non diabetic but the body does not turn the sugar into insulin properly and thus the sugar stays in the body,, the plan of actiion was to be put back on my medication for weight maintenance.. but decrease sugars and fats further and to excercise more,, as of next week josh has been booked in to the Gym 2 times as normal next week Mon and wed and hoping dad can have Josh on a friday if not I will go friday evening..

so hopefully a little more will drop off, also I want to do Pilates but I need to find one in a evening..

I have taken my monthly photos well my OH did so this is July 08 front and side view,, I still have a way to go until I look really fit but I am feeling more comfortable with myself,, but the tummy is still causing me concern,, but getting better about it





All Piercings too are doing well, I still need to get my ring changed but I can never get there prior to 11am without a child,, and they wont do it with a child with me,, which i dont blame them,, I was thinking when I next go to london find somewhere that could do it for me, but i kinda know the bloke and I can relax with the chap back in town,, so I will just have to be patient,, the next thing i want done are my nails,, would like some false ones or extenions or what ever they do now, as I realy want pretty nails,, and mine are far from pretty..

On the Tattoo Front that has not appeard yet,, due to feeling very worried about reactions,, I know my dad would flip,, would say turn in his grave but his still with us and going strong,, and my OH says NO which makes me feel I want to do it more,, NO one really should tell you what to do with your body right..