Not Much Happening right now

Hi Guys.

I have decieded that Me and Martin need a holiday together, something that we have not done for 20 years mainly due to money and work we never get round to having holidays and then having children its even rarer.. I have thought about where to go, but still not sure, not sure whether to hope on a plane and do a friday - monday trip to Italy, Barcelona kinda Holiday or stay closer to home and go to Rutland and a quiet peacefull time, Martin will check he can get the time off, and All I have to do is Book it, and get the kids and dog sorted, I was thinking early July for my Birthday really.. Just need some great ideas of where to go.. obvioulsy not too many people as martin hates busy holiday places, infact not sure he likes many people about at all,

Also I was thinking maybe doing a spa break

well I have a little while to sit on it,,

so will scour the internet to see what there is,, but ideas would be great,,

Another Change

Yesterday I had my hair done again, it was january when I had some red put in my hair as I thought being darker would be better for me, but I felt I was looking OLD,, so I had my hairdresser friend do blonde yesterday,, and I do so much better, a and a little younger too.,. I took my photo on my phone so its not fantasic but it is lighter that before

Body Confidence

ok I will be first to admit that I have a big problem with my body,, for years I can remember some family members telling me I was fat, also I had a moustache,, (I know the answers for it all now) but it has had a great impact on me, I was never one of those girls who could undress comfortably at school in the changing rooms for PE and nor am i know in the Gym, I go ready dressed so I dont have to get changed,, then I go home and have a shower,, I know were all girls but so many of them are stick think I hate the thought of everyone looking at me and thinking fat bitch,, so yesterday I sent of for some info on GOks Channel 4 series How to look Good Naked,, I need to fill a form out and send photos off to get in with a chance,, or I will save save and save again, (when overdraft is clear and credit card clear) as I want my boobs lifted and a tummy tuck.. So unless there is a nice person out there who wants to get shot of some money,, they I wil l have to save for a long long time,,

Should be a happy time

well this week marks 22 years that me and my parter have been together, but its not as happy for me as it should me, ok we are sailing through problems which at times I find quite hard to do,, and yes its probably a woman thing,, you see last night I got dressed up in a maids outfit with hold ups and I thought looked very nice,, ok I didn't have the high heels as I would break my neck, well I had a shower got dressed and waited for my partner to come do bed which he did,, well I got, oh you look ready for action,, I said thats what I was hoping for,, well he said Sorry,, and just got into bed and put the TV on,, well trying not to cry I could not help it, the tears ran down my face, I got dressed in Pjs and settled for a hand holding session, but I can tell you I felt totally rejected, unloved and unwated,, ok sex is not everything, but I am doing all I can to spice things up for a man in a mid life crisses,, maybe thats my mistake maybe I shouldn't bother,, I do feel somewhat kicked down and feel that now the flirt is back that he no longer needs me,, but then its probably nothing and he was probably tired but all I got was Sorry not even a thanks for getting dressed up for me,, mind you probably I expect to much from a man..

Good Day yesterday was

Yesterday started of really well, I went to see the nurse to be weighed again the first time with her and I have lost 2lb,, so now I am now 14st 4lb,, then is was up to toddlers with Joshua,, so much fun he has there, and he did his first painting too, he was so pleased with himself, and no he did not get too much paint on himself, but the eisel was covered,, after toddlers was a trip to dads to drop Josh off so I could go to the Gym,, Need to book an assessment and the Personl trainer is leaving and I really cant afford another one,, I nipped into town to a local adult shop were every assistant pounces on you saying " Can I help" infact I knew what I wanted to NO they didn't need to help me this time, I brought want I wanted and headed back to the car.

Of to my friend to have my hair cut and thinned out,, it so needed it, and it feels so much better, I am back there again in two weeks time to have my hair high lighted,, I admite I love my hair slighty darker but feel I need to lighten it up to make me feel younger, and hopefully sexier too,, not that I don't already as my piercings are helping me in that way,, but having the hair lighter may make me feel better in myself too..

Nipple Shields

I am the first to admit that I thought that Nipple shields where just for Breast Feeding mothers who had sore nipples, well i have used them myself,, well just googling on a piercing website I came across a very different Nipple shield and I must say I do prefer these,, I am hooked already,, so when my piercings have settled down I would love something very different,, take a look at this link Nipple Shields there amazing and when you get looking there are loads and loads out there.. and this lot too Heart shape

2 days in

Right its been 2 days in after having my piercings done, and they have settled really quickly, the bleeding finally stopped yesterday, I must say I was a little worried as the first time they hardly bleed, but after a quick phone call is was probably due the the fact I am on medication and I went to the gym yesterday that made them bleed a tad longer,, well anyway today I dont feel like I have them there, well no tenderness at all, not like I had for about a month last time round.. The Chap did say that as I have scar tissue they can heal quicker so in 2 weeks time I can be pretty normal again (well what ever normal for me is anyway) I am cleaning them with sea salt and turning the rings,, and thats when they tingle,,, but I notice them when i pick josh up, or I get rubbed against but on the whole far better this tims round,

as for the other ring,, on a daily basis I dont notice it so not annoying, but other times its a great thing to have..