Feeling Normal Again

Hi all,

Feeling Normal again is a bit of a funny title really, but its all about being balanced out,, last Friday I managed to pop into town to the local tattoo parlour where I had my piercings done as i needed to get a bar put in and me being me and time being hard without children, as your not allowed to take kids in there, the times I have popped in for the bar fitting and he has just started on a tattoo has been countless, he told me to try to get there for 11 am thats as soon as the doors open,, so I managed to get there and its done, but I was told off, bearing in mind that I have only had them done a few months now, I did put a little dangly one in a while back and whilst its ok not causing any discomfort I had to take it out due to the man saying they have not been done long enough for dangly ones, so now I have a matching pair of pink bars so not feeling so odd now, more kinda Normal, thats if you can call me Normal.. tattoo is still undecided really, cant make my mind up,, I think if I was not with my man then I might do it, but then also I should not feel like that anyway, but still thinking about it, may leave it until I am 40 in a couple of years,,


The weight is still comming of slowly,, down to 14st now and a size 16 which for me is good as I used to be 20, 22 and 24 in the past 10 years,., so to be 16 is fantastic, but its still to heavy by drs count.. so will still be going to the Gym, althogh I managed Monday at 6.30 am I was planning to go today but due to mother nature taking hold my stomach is really not up for it today,, but will be going on Friday,,

My head on the other hand gets all upside down and emotional at this time of the month and I find myself thinking what am I doing with a Man who does not want to marry me, who does nothing about the home, ect,, but that passes within a few days and I am ok again,, but its that kinda time when I keep my mouth shut else I am likely to say something stupid..