Wow

Looking at those photos does make you realise that yes I was big, and yes I still am but I am not such an odd shape, in may I was 16st 8 and I am now 14st 10lb and whilst loosing weight does not really help to fine me, who I really am, but I am a happier me, which says a lot, because all of my childhood pre teens and up I was told by my father that I had puppy fat but I must be a st bernard puppy, or you dont want to get as big as your mum or you are fat you should do more,, and I now realise that whilst at the time I felt big I was not.. but when your told enough you believe it, but sod them all, I am doing this for me, and only me, and I have not finished yet, If i can get my stomach flat enough (which may be tough) I am going to get my belly pieced,, yes I know probably old fashioned now,, but its what I want at the moment, well I need a goal to work to and as the Other half has told me there will be no wedding well not to him anyway,, I need something to aim for.. or may be a really nice number in ann summers, or a nice cat suit with theigh lenght boots sorry if I offend anyone but hey its me talking at the moment,, Maybe get a good job to somewhere but that will have to wait, but I would like to be a special education assistant in the future,, what ever I aim for its for me and no one else...but what ever it is I do I have to make sure my boys are not affected in anyway,,